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let loose in the shopping mall -
a pretty flower in the concrete sprawl
the Chiligirl did contemplate
the ways of Life, Reason and fate
A giant teddy, balloons in trees,
in a lake about to freeze
Loreley (she holds the key:
the first fanart for you from me!)
The Austrian queen of Tights..that's true..
from Nightwalk black to Underground blue
or peering out from below a coat
who cares why - you've got my vote!
Always on a road, it seems
or Grunging up my weirdest dreams
this Pan Am girl in Exile far
She's best in black, with a guitar
Watch out folks, you may get burned
all this time, you haven't learned?
she's radioactive, a super bowl
the next Kate Moss her final goal
Nico, Bowie, Suede and Reed
all fullfill your musical need
and leon, he'd Clean for you..that's cool
No women no kids..that's the rule!
So what's with all this smart-assed rhyme?
I just thought I'd take some time
to wish you, in a different way
All the best, forever and today
Happy Birthday Monika, you are indeed the E
To you allI appeared on here in April
A turning point for me
I needed somewhere to show my art
A place for all to see
My eternal thanks to one Rei-Chan
For showing me the way
She sowed the seeds to the Friendship tree
That grows larger every day
Alexis followed, Caroline too,
Iveta, and other names
Building up a social life
That will never be the same
Fantastic artwork here abides
Works of genius some
Words of wisdom too abound
In this, my second home
Photographs that show the eyes
the beauty of this place
Be it sunset, landscape, town or nude
Or expressions on a face
Love was found here too within
My life seemed almost whole
Half a world apart from those
to whom I bare my soul
Lots of names to mention here
But a few I have to quote
As meaning everything to me
For whom these words I wrote
Alexis, Caroline, I said before,
Trish of course, and Mel
Kayla, Carrie, Sarah, Jade,
And all the siblings Bell
Steve, Lyle, Andy and John
Show it's not just ladies here
But with work by Kanisa, Ileana too
My Quiet HomeMountain of Angels, a stone's throw away
Once a volcano, no more
watching over all that goes on around
as you have countless ages before
My quiet home, pathetic and small
midst rolling hills, next to the sea
The place where I've lived, many a year
with a beauty I no longer see
I come in at the end of each day
the same hollow silence I greet
No one to say "Hi " or offer a hug
No loving eyes there to meet
I sit everyday in my little world
lost in my thoughts far away
dreaming and wishing for far better things
that miracles might soon come my way
A bored tv sleeps, no longer required
the passion for repeats long since died
This Toshiba is all I require right now
The key to my goals held inside
All that I hear and all that I see
and all that I love it keeps there
my constant companion, to light up the night
and show me for whom I do care
When darkness falls, I sit and await
the comforting blanket of night
the light of the screen to steer me by
and a lamp to ensure I draw right!
The rainTonight I went out in the rain
A shopping trip, boring...mundane..
A steady stream of heavenly dew
Disguised these tears I shed for you
An unexpected bill of fare
The final cost I want to share
These feelings of frustration, guilt
Despite the love and trust we've built
"I miss you hun" I said aloud
My voice anon within the crowd
My thoughts with you so far away
As darkness fell on this wet day
The rain is heavy now I fear
Sat inside I watch and hear
The deafening drops fall from above
As I think only of you, my love...
Your Photo 2I gaze at your photo every day
wishing to God I could be there to say
that in my eyes from angel dust you were made
and for God's love to you, every day I have prayed
I stare for ages into your your sweet eyes
your windows of the soul, your heart within lies
They captivate me and still draw me deep
into your persona, your love no more asleep
i see beyond the the extra odd pound
to the person inside, on good solid ground
I just wanna hold you and kiss you forever
And show you that I wouldn't walk away... NEVER
I bet that same smile, on your face, still resides
the years dare not remove the beauty that hides
when your lips they part and that smile reappears
and wipes away all of my worries and fears
I gaze at your photo and ache for the day
To see you there next to me, sleeping away
or awakening slowly, that first morning smile
your first rays of sunshine that last quite a while
I pine for you, sweetheart, my heart longs for thee
To join in our body and soul, you and me
Your photoyour photo, well I sit and stare
I gaze longingly
fighting the urge to plant kisses on the screen
but for how long...
no leap of faith needed here
about doubts or indecisions
My thanks to you, for opening up
I stayed your fall
caught you in my soul
It's only a matter of time though
my screen gets wet
with kisses and tears
of joy, of pasion, of love
No lack of sleep inducing
just a greater understanding
and appreciation of your love
The reason whyMy dearest love, I shall not judge
you on your looks, nor hold a grudge
'gainst sands of time and circumstance
Just in your mind, I'll take the chance!
I learned the truth, it hurt my heart
Oh where could I begin to start
to reassure your precious soul
that took my heart and made it whole
All I wanted was to see
The one who held my passion's key
Instead I saw a sadder side
I took a breath and promptly cried
How could I but reassure
The one to whom my love was pure
that all she is I hold so dear
I'll never leave, she need not fear
I love you hun, I'll say again
and by your side I will remain
for ever more cos I don't care
about your weight or shade of hair
in my eyes you will always be
sent from Heaven to be with me
as close to perfect as you'll get
to you I'll always owe a debt
of love, in kisses, paid in kind
and something more if you don't mind
cos there within your outer shell
your pearl of love, shining so well
I love you sweetheart, always will
to love you gives me such a thrill
all that goes with youI never thought to say it before
please forgive my ineptitude
I was lost in the moments
of just being with you
I was lost in your words
and wandering in your eyes
always worried, what would you say?
would you walk away?
I was scared of what you thought
I was looking for with you
and that I didn't want the whole deal
Didn't know how you'd feel
I didn't know how to say it
or even if I could - or should
but you asked me anyway
the truth I had to say
"yes yes I do!!"
to which you replied "AWESOME!!!"
my smile increased moresome
my worries were no more
Immense joy and elation
a fabulous communication
I am that willing partner
If your heart it doth desire
to stoke the flames up higher
of love, burning within
Cheated of it, you once said
well I can put that right
give blind ambition sight
if you let me try
A new chapterMy love you need to let it go
All the past that hurts you so
I see your pain in all your words
I feel your hurt in all I've heard
I know that ghost won't fade away
Returns to haunt for another day
Your wound it starts to bleed again
That deepcut scar e'er to remain
I felt your heart and soul was frayed
The day he left. I hoped and prayed
That you would start, in Time, anew
and see things from a different view
I know that past is over now
But, love, you need to find somehow
To say goodbye to all that's been
To wipe that slate of your life clean
It may take time, it may bring tears
It may take days, or even years
But Life awaits,all there for you
To bring you joy, each moment through
Your Pheonix will indeed arise
To shine it's light on distant eyes
To exorcise the ghosts of pain
Replace with love, e'er to remain
XIV - SmileThis is a f r a g i l e world
One where your smile is light
Where L|I|F|E is written
By the creases in your eyes
The press of your cheek on mine
The warmth of your very eyes on me
Is enough to make me hold my breath
I have always gazed in awe of you
Stunned by your brilliance
And always where you think you have none
I would not lie, and your mirror mind does not either
P e r f e c t i o n
Is strived for, collective goals
But your smile, the ones with the creases
And the heart stopping way you look at me
Is all the world needs to rotate
Is all my world needs to grow
Is all I need to love
Is all I need.
You. Today was a weird day...
One of those days..where...
I wake up...holding your past...in my arms.
Flesh and ghost of dreamsTobias:
and it all goes
The smile and eyes,
the touch - of silk
and skin – bare.
The love and loss,
it all vanishes into thin air;
she stole one
and she is one
in sudden pain
and I realize -
The HeartThe Heart.
Wanting to be filled with a deep true love, that it needs. It desires. It craves. It lives for.
With every beat, it gives life. Life that is needed while waiting for the Universe to send it what it yearns for.
With every beat, it sends out a sound, a signal, a wave of energy calling out for the one other heart that it is meant to be with.
When it is joined with that other one true heart, the love and energy that will flow from it, will radiate and consume whomever it belongs to.
Combining and becoming one. One heart that can't live without the other. A rhythmic symphony that forms the greatest love there is.
The Love within.
Love that will never be questioned. Never be doubted. Never betrayed. Never falter or held back. Never pushed away, because it's a love that is so addicting, so alluring, so strong, that to deny it would be bleeding one's self from within and thus creating a starvation and thirst that can only be fed and quenched by that love itself.
Love that becomes su
One, TwoOne, two,
Here's my poem to you.
I can't take it anymore.
A problem I can't fix
I can't think straight.
It's your heart I want to win.
The Frog and the PrincessHe was just a frog.
Not that he did'nt have his moments, but life had reached a point of mindless boredom and loneliness. Anything of any value or substance was just a distant memory.
His heart was burning like a fire deep within, but the exterior had turned into just a cold device to stay alive. His mind raced day and night processing everything he could to make sense of each day. His soul kept searching for a connection to feel something that had never been felt and to finally know he was'nt drifting through the Universe alone. His body and life had turned into an emitting transponder of multiple frequencies waiting to receive something in return, but all he ever got was distortion and silence.
So he sat on his lilly pad of life, staring into the world, seeing and hearing everything. Consuming it all like a black hole, only to be left in complete darkness.
Then one day, out of nowhere, he felt something. It was'nt much at first, but it instantly caught his attention. It was something
Seduction of DarknessFrom deep within. It burns like a fire. Scorching the soul. A torch of flames that will not subside. No matter how hard the effort to resist, the grasp is unbreakable. Consuming every thought and emotion. Leaving the mind wandering endlessly, trying to envision every moment as it happens and the moments which await. The dark seduction lurks in the shadows of the mind and silently rests until called upon. To be released within an evil smile. An evil laugh. A playfully evil happiness that creates inspiration and gives strength. Creating a balance of inner harmony and not allowing anything to be locked away and repressed. Allowing every emotion to be set free and transformed into reality. A reality of dreams, wishes, desires and passions that dance around and brings energy that is meant to be experienced. An energy that explodes into a loving and lustful pleasure that engulfs the essence of life. As I gaze into the reflection, I see a seduction born
You Don't Understand My loveWhite pedals snowed from a pallid sky
I call upon you to share this moment with I
Silken nothings, shifting lacey dreams
Fall from the sky in ashen somethings
When in love, only I see beauty
I profuse my foolishness in my poetry
They never read, begging wild mood swings
Decend, wrothful knives on coal black wings
It's still a feeling
It may not be love but it’s still a feeling.
This is different from the desperate heartbreaks
Tear drops on my guitar.
When I’m with you I feel alive
Love isn’t who makes you the happiest
It’s who makes the breath you expel from lungs
Into beautiful lyrics that leave your lips.
I may not be in love with you
But darling I DO love you.
Yet no one can make me sadder
And I continue to put myself through hell to be near you
Wear a smile and say I’m fine
Well I lied, because I love you.
So I’ll stand by and watch
Because you’re where I eat lunch
And he’s there, I loathe that boy because I told you
You know. And sense the day I wrote this
You told me you loved me too, and I cried.
I remember when you asked me If I hated you
Tears running down your face
The sadness pent up with quark and screw
Over flowing. But baby I bottle smiles..
I lie. Because I love you
I’m better than some high school soap opera
I’m above the dram
For a friendYou are my friend
My trusted one
Who loves cooling rain
more than the sun
You were my muse
For a while my desire
Til I read the signs,
Damped down the fire
A few tears shed
No problem at all
Then a deep breath
And try to walk tall
Full of surpises
All truly heard
I gave you my word
There for advice
Eachtime I would ask
Nothing too much
No mean a task
There to adore
To remind you what living
really is for
I owe you bigtime
For words past and new
And for just being there
I truly thank you
Thankyou for being
Above all my friend
I love you and wish you
The best til the end
Teenage TaoismGiving birth is the closest I’d ever felt to dying.
Before that, my near death experiences had consisted only of my silent announcement of pregnancy—silent, being that my social media accounts were all deleted almost simultaneously and I never returned to school in the fall, saying without really saying that I had caught the malicious disease of “teenage pregnancy”. I’m sure the whisper spread in the hallways like the Bubonic Plague. That September, sitting at home on what would have been the first day of my senior year, I imagined friends I’d never talk to again saying “she was only seventeen, and so full of life!” at my absence in the cafeteria tables, as if they were attending my funeral instead of talking about me behind my back.
"Full of life," I had snorted then, folding a never ending stream of what had once been my own baby clothes. "Literally."
I walked around like a zombie for the months of my pregnancy, deciding t
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